This is the Continuation of the series, “It’s not the end, Butterfly“. If you haven’t read the first post I would recommend you touching on that one before you proceed on. You can find it by clicking on Butterfly… duh, what else? I’ll begin with the last three paragraphs of that post.
I’ve always had a passion for writing. I get it from my mother actually. When she passed away I acquired all of her writings; four spiral notebooks and loose leaf pages of her thoughts and feelings. Within her life pages of thoughts and feelings, she wrote me a letter, that she never sent off to me. This letter would change me in ways that I could never have imagined.
Imagine if you will, you receive a letter from your mother who had just passed away, and it seemed she had just written it to you; talking directly to you in the here and now.
It was another nudge for me to start my first blog. I had often asked her why she’d chosen a life of mediocrity when she had such a gift inside of her. It would actually make me so upset knowing that she had the gift and wasn’t using it. Her answer to my question would be,“I am only a vessel that God used to bring you into the world. You will use my gift to change your world.”
Once I was a Caterpillar…
The funny thing about how these past four or so years have transpired for me is that everything seems to fit in like the metamorphisis of a caterpillar turning into a butterfly.
You see, the stages of the butterfly life cycle include: egg, larva, pupa, and adult. I’d like to think of the adult part as the full Release!
Everything in the life of butterfly within its cycle screams purpose and destiny. From the beginning of the cycle, an adult butterfly will lay it’s egg or eggs, depending on the species, on a leaf or petal. It lays it there because whenever the egg hatches it will use that leaf or petal as food for it’s nourishment.
Female butterflies have been know to be very picky about where they lay their eggs. Partly because when the egg hatches; the caterpillar’s sole purpose is to eat as much grub as it can. Caterpillars are as picky of eaters as the adult butterfly is of where the egg will be laid.
Now, this is where it gets interesting to me. When the caterpillar is born it has no idea of why it was laid on that particular leaf. All it knows is that it’s alone and it’s hungry. I can relate to this because I was born, left alone (not literally, figuratively speaking), and I was hungry for Life. There just wasn’t anyone around to teach how to truly live.
I didn’t have the examples that other’s would have to get the “better life” that we’re often taught to make for ourselves. I do not take for granted the lessons I did receive, because they were just as valuable as the one’s I would’ve gotten had the people that taught me my lessons, known for themselves how to achieve. Oprah said this week in her Life Class, “When you know better, you do better.” Those that taught me how to live didn’t know how to do any better than what they had been taught.
So please don’t think that I’m feeling sorry for myself by sharing this part of my life with you, because that’s just simply not the case. Today, I know that the purpose in life of my life pages, formed and shaped my destiny. I’m sharing this series with each of you, because it was my life pages that made me who I am. And it’s my belief that they will help others to cope with theirs. Had I not gone through every single thing that I went through, there would be no Releasing Me Today! It was all apart of my purpose and destiny. Just like everything that you’re going through in your life is apart of who you were meant to be.
We have to see ourselves much like the caterpillar and understand that there simply are no mistakes in our life pages. None! Despite what we’ve been told, may have heard, or come to believe ourselves; you are exactly where you were meant to be. Make no mistake about that.
Hearing Intuition When Destiny is Speaking
I’m currently reading a book right now that my dear friend and fellow blogger, Jk Allen gave to me as a gift to read. The name of the book is called 180: Climbing the Two Ladders of Inner Strength and Outer Freedom. It’s written by another fellow blogger by the name of Rob White. I definitely recommend you read it. It’s an awesome book!
The book itself is a ninety day program that will have you break through to an extraordinary new life. I got that from Rob’s Website, Mind Adventure. Rob will have you looking at life with a pair of brand new eyes with his insights and awesome approach to life.
Although I am only partly through the book, I felt the purpose and need for me to read this book at this point in my life this morning. The reason I say this is because, I began writing this series of “It’s Not the End, Butterfly!” almost a week ago; I was going to write it and leave it as a draft until I was ready to post it. Which wasn’t going to be anytime soon, I assure you. Something in me kept pushing me to post it now. I don’t know why, I didn’t question it, partly because I’m getting a lot better about listening to my instincts. Something I think that has come with the whole “rock bottom” thing.
Coincidentally, yesterday’s program was titled Green Mush. I won’t go into great detail about Green Mush, you’ll have to look into the pages of this masterpiece to grip why this was so incredibly right on point with this series. I will say this though, there is a quote that Rob stated in this section that says, “Handling change is a necessary rite of passage toward awakening total intelligence.” Powerful stuff, right? Yes! Get the book, I’m telling you… you will not be disappointed.
Before I get ahead of myself, let’s head back to the caterpillar. Shall we?
Life comes with challenges. They’re bound to happen. Oftentimes when we are going through those challenges we have no clue about what they mean. All we gather from them is the discomfort that they sometimes seem to cause us. Most of which, we’re simply not meant to know what they mean at the time.
There’s not much difference in the challenges that caterpillars face. When a caterpillar is born it is born with a skin that isn’t fully mature. With it being a devourer of food most of it’s life, the food actually helps the caterpillar to form a second layer of skin underneath it’s softer skin. Powerful stuff already, isn’t it?
When the time is right, and not a moment sooner, the caterpillar will shed it’s first layer of old, softer skin; this occurs in order to form a newer, thicker layer of skin. The process is properly called Molting. The caterpillar goes through this process an excess of five times. Each time it takes a little longer than the first.
Do you know what I find most amazing about the Molting Stage? The whole point of the Molting Stage is for the caterpillar to grow into it’s new thicker skin. That’s five stages of eating, growing new skin under the older skin, shedding that skin, and growing into the next skin. Talk about growing thick skin! Jeez!
I can imagine that by this time the caterpillar is thinking that it is on it’s way out. Death is surely knocking on it’s door! Each time it gets familiar with it’s brand new skin, it loses it; only to be covered with brand new thicker skin.
I pictured when the caterpillar is in it’s newer skin and crawling around with it’s other friendly caterpillars (that’s just a metaphor, entertain me on this one) the other caterpillars are going through the same process, but they’re looking at him and saying, “Hey, there’s something different about you… I can’t quite put my finger on it. Are you new?”
And the caterpillar looks back at them and says, “I don’t know… something’s not right… something is definitely off with me. I think this is the end.”
The End? Uh, I don’t think so!
After the fourth Molting Stage, the caterpillar goes through the change once more. This time I’m thinking it’s the most petrifying of all the stages to it. After what seems like a longtime in caterpillar years of changes and inner defeats, the caterpillar will go to shed his fourth and final layer and notice a change a little bit different than the last several changes that it’s been experiencing. From the inside out the skin begins to form a harden shell. I’m pretty sure that the caterpillar is thinking that this is sort of like a caterpillar casket or something.
He has spent all his life thinking that he was born hungry. Everything he’s eaten has never fulfilled him, never satisfied that burning urge to be who it thinks it was meant to be. Much like the feeling of defeat and hopelessness I felt over the last several years.
Much like the judgement those around me have past without taking notice of the process, I sure he heard his naysayers say, “Oh, he’s finished” “No, he’s wasting his life away, sitting in that shell”. Despite what it looks like from the outside, the caterpillar is not resting…. I am not resting! It’s maturing and getting ready for its purpose in life.
What he couldn’t see before that last Molting Stage, was that his wings were actually forming under his skin. Now, while he lays in the harden shell metamorphosis has begun to take place. Antennas are sprouting from it’s head, the mouthparts that once used to chew leaves is now being transformed into sucking mouthparts, wings are fully formed, and the body is now that of an adult butterfly.
Even after the butterfly emerges from it’s harden shell, it’ll still be a while until it dries it’s wings and teaches itself how to fly. The cycle is never completely finished until it sets sail and feel the wind beneath it’s wings. After this is done, the butterfly will softly hear a voice from heaven whisper, “See… I told you it’s not the end, Butterfly!”
Now, I’m a Butterfly
My life has been a replicate much like the metamorphosis of the caterpillar into a butterfly. The stages that seem to have been killing me on the inside… and on the outside, where simply stages in my life that I had to go through. They were kind of like my Human Molting stages.
Before my Molting stages started happening, life was being spent still in the egg of the unknown. When I hatched into my comfort zone, I was literally hungry for something else. Constantly searching for whatever it was. For what? I had no earthly idea. All I knew is that the life I was living wasn’t the one that was meant for me. That’s often the case though for those of us that know that we aren’t fulfilling our purpose in life.
When I started blogging is when I started shedding away the soft skin. When you start to do this, a few things happen. You have to be smart and watch for other things that will arise to break that soft shell. It’ll take that smallest thing… anything really, to do this. That’s why when all of the loss, the questions, everything that had happen to me in my life started happening; my life suddenly began to make sense. My hard skin was maturing under the soft skin. So that once I began to shed that first layer of soft skin, I had begin to fully grow into that first layer of hard skin… thicker skin.
I could stand a little bit more, I could soar a little bit higher, I could see my purpose and my destiny happening right before my eyes.
I was still susceptible to the hurt, trauma, and emotions that sure to come that will try to tear into my soft skin, but the soft skin is no longer there. Hitting rock bottom has formed a harder shell than I could have ever imagined. Through my Molting Stage I learned some very valuable lessons though. Here’s a few things that I learned.
Lessons In the Human Molting Stage
- The end is simply that, the end. You’ll certainly know when it arrives. If you’re still breathing, blood running warm in your veins, then guess what… it’s not the end.
- When something is taken from you, it wasn’t yours to begin with. The universe is aware of what you need and during your Molting stage, it will provide it to you.
- The Molting Stage is only temporary. Like most things in life it will come to an end. It’s important to try and stay as positive as you possible can during this cycle. Having a sulky attitude only prolongs the stage. Hence, almost five years for me.
- Never try to drown the Molting Stage with outside substance, it will deepen whatever feelings you are already feeling at that time. If your sad, it will only heighten that sadness.
- Consider that the universe is purging you of the things and people that won’t appreciate you once you have fully grown into who you were meant to be. It goes back to that saying about people, A season, a reason, and a lifetime. All you have to do is sit back and let destiny play it’s hand. What is meant to be, will certainly be.
- When things are shedding off all around you, and nothing seems to be going your way, and the hunger for life seems to be overwhelmingly painful; it might be that the Creator is pushing you into your destiny… into your purpose in life. Don’t fight it… It’s not the end, butterfly! In time the world will see you as God saw you from the beginning.
Well Ladies and Gents, I hope you’ve been enjoying the “It’s Not the End, Butterfly!” Series. If you have please leave me your feedback on what you thought about what you’ve read thus far. You know that I’m always interested in hearing from you.
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May you find your Release and Master the day’s ahead!
Can you relate to this series? Have you ever felt like you were going through changes, just to come to the realization that the changes were forming you into a butterfly… pushing you towards your destiny? Share your Release with me.